Sunday, March 12, 2006

NATIONAL VERTICAL MARATHON 2006!!!

our training, once a week for 4 weeks, did not go to waste afterall... my team came in 5th out of 40 teams!!

it's so cool because before the climb, we were predicting that we will at most get 20th position out of 40.. and OMG.. it's freaking OPEN category.. with all the zai pple. haha.. pre-climb photo.. looking happy and relaxed as we (once again) wear back our odac shirts. heee.. it's been almost 2 years since i wore that!
queuing up to go to the start line... hmm.. we were damn nervous at this point.. the number 127 is our queue number. btw, that's lek, me, eleanor, meng heng and sam (from left to right!)..that's the time then. 12:08.. we were gonna start running at 12:10 i think. haha.. between each team, there's a 2 minute interval. heee... and we still have time to take photo.. haha!

here we go!! usually, pple will run to the stairs jus to look zai.. i think it's damn funny cuz when u reach the stairs, u will naturally slow down then start climbing.

anyway during the climb, we all managed to overtake pple which is kinda cool and really encouraging because as i said, there's a 2 min interval between teams.. so yupz.

i managed to overtake 2 girls. although i was damn tired, i felt kinda good. haha. and it really made me go that much further. but at the 40th storey i was gonna overtake this fat guy and he's such a bully.. he hogged the stairs and refused to let me cut him. such an ass. then what? in the end, he was only one sec in front of me.

at the top, it's amazing. there's a million photographers trying to snap pictures. and once again, it's a good feeling. haha... like some marathon runner coming in first or something and everyone wants to take a picture of her.. haha.. right. i'm imagining things and crappy. this is after the climb.. we all look so fresh still.. but actually we were damn shagged. i must say we all did well..
posing with our medals and the hamper that is full of drinks!!

i'm feeling really happy now.. think the feeling of getting a prize for our hard work is finally sinking in.. and of all the stuff that i ever joined, this is my first medal. i usually only get trophies if anything at all.. haha..
met my primary sch friend.. u might recongnize her from her marathon runs n all.. she's always getting top 3 at least for her competitions and today was no exception. she took part in individual women's category and she came in first! she took only 7:02 mins to climb 43 storeys! i'll never be able to do that!! haha..

haiz. i realize that i really miss the odac pple. although they always make fun of me. i believe and i know that it's all in good fun. i miss training every twice a week.. doing crazy stunts and runs and trekking and going for expeditions and chilling and complaining that training is mad.. and i'm tired and all that.. and it feels great to be joining this with them! i miss not being able to sleep at night cuz i'm worried abt the competition the next day. i wanna feel the adrenaline rush! i wanna do more things together again.. they're going to berkelah soon and i cant go cuz of schoolwork.. haiz. it's always like that!! booo....

oh well. at least we have one month free membership from planet fitness (cuz of NVM 2006) so i guess we can all join the fitness class tog.. at least for one more month.... :)

and i shld add that although lionel was not there physically and was sleeping at the time i was climbing, he was really supportive throughout my training. been enduring with all my complains n whines and wishing me luck and all the hugs and msgs.. thankew! heee..

Saturday, March 11, 2006

NVM training.

i cant believe that tmr's the day of national vertical marathon!! we've only been training for 4 weeks, once a week. that's not enough..!! now, all i can do is wait for tmr to come. hmm. actually i shouln't be feeling stressful. we're not really competing la. it's all for fun. i mean we're in the open team category and it's the worst category i feel cuz there's so many fit pple ard who will join. hmm. anyway. i'm going mad. haha. i dunno why i am feeling nervous already.. hee.

Friday, March 10, 2006

pre-departure US blues :(

going to US soon. sooner that i want to. i really cant believe that i'm gonna be gone for so long. gonna leave on 25 april 2006 till 18 august. that's damn long. that's 4 months long.

i'm gonna miss this place. gonna miss my friends. gonna miss just being around and complaining that there's nothing to do. gonna miss going to orchard. gonna miss the yu sheng at tiong bahru. and of cuz i will miss my family, including my 2 cute rabbits at home. haiz.

i know this whole US thing is really exciting. going to work for 3 months and travel for almost a month. that's huge. at least for me. but what if i dun enjoy myself at all? what if there's a bombing? AHHHH... haha.

i can only hope that everything will be ok. pple live with questions all the time. dun they?

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

random funny pictures.

had a million and one emails in my hotmail email acct and i was jus looking thru when i saw this mail that my cousin sent. it's those forwarded mails with stupid, lame pictures. anyway, here are a couple.
heee... :)

Sunday, March 05, 2006

brokeback mountain

i watched "dirty dancing" again!! i love it!! i almost forgot why i fell in love with the show till i watched it last night.. it's one of the best movies EVER!! and the last dance is so so so so amazing. i wished i could dance like that. damn.... haha.

anyway, yest was a happy day cuz i finally got pheebe and pherbe to share a cage!notice the difference in size! HAAAAA... pheebe is the brown rabbit. (6mths old). pherbe is the new /smaller rabbit. (2mths old) .this photo looks a little *ahem* humppish and gay.. but no. pheebe is not humping pherbe. it's jus eating. it doesn't really care abt pherbe. and pherbe LOVES to be squashed by pheebe. oh well...

and since i changed the bedding yest and washed the cages, i tot i'll wash them too!

Pherbe:

he looks like a silky terrier with a rabbit's head in the first photo! cuz thr fur looks so smooth and all with the water. haha.. he's so damn cute!!

in the second photo, notice i'm holding him horizontally with one hand! haha.. look carefully at the background n u will see the shampoo and the toilet floor. HAHA! i love how he din move and jus allowed me to wash his paw. :)

Pheebe:

and pheebe. he's like an alien. this was not taken yest actually but i jus tot i'll put it in. heh! look at his ears.. and his head looks bigger then his body. haha! i love pheebe.. he's such a handsome alieny rabbit.. :)

Thursday, March 02, 2006

bad hair status :(

i shoulda, gotta, hafta do something abt my hair...

i seriously have no idea what to do with it. i took the longest time to finally decide to try letting my hair grow longer than my shoulders.. but now, i dunno what to do with it other than tie it up. i cant let it down cuz it curls both ways (the left side curves to the left and the right side curves to the right) so i look damn comical if i let it down. but when it's nice, it's a little wavy.. (big waves. the nicer kind) at the bottom... i kinda like it like that when it's good hair day. but... normally, it's jus really messy!

AND, i dunno what to do with my fringe when i tie it up.. dunno whether to clip it or let it down n be irritated with it. hmmm.. and i have baby fringe! argh.

so.. i'm thinking i'll either straighten it, have it a little curly/wavy, or jus leave it. hmmm............

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

EXCITING NEWS!!!

wooohoooo.. i finally got myself (and pheebe) a new rabbit!! it's so so cute!
but i haven tot of a name for it. it's a male. sam says call it newbie. lionel says "heebe (to rhyme with pheebe and herbie) or spotsie or miffy or pherbe".. hmm.. i really have no idea.

pheebe and pherbe?

haiz. and another problem. now pheebe has to get use to the new rabbit. and rabbits aren't exactly the friendliest to new comers. sigh. i tried jus now and pheebe got so so excited. it was about to hump the new rabbit. hmmm..

Monday, February 27, 2006

my FAVOURITE girls :)

was reading thru flea's blog today and i recognized this picture.. (actually the picture that was on her blog only showed the legs part but i could tell it was this picture. i'm a freak!! :p)anyway, I ABSOLUTELY LURVE THEM!! (mary-kate and ashley. the olsen twins) ...



a few pictures that i would like to share. heee. they're so so pretty. they're like dolls cuz they're really small-sized and they have damn nice eyes.. it's easier to tell since mary-kate dyed her hair. she's the brunette now.. i kinda like her better cuz she has personality. i think la. and she's into vintage clothes. hee.. and that's jus something abt her smile.

when i go to US, i hope to bump into them! pls pls i pray.. i do hope i bump into them... *closes eyes, palms together, looks to the sky* :)

Sunday, February 26, 2006

DOTA!!

did some dota-ing just now cuz lionel and i were done with our work earlier than expected. so he was teaching me some of the dota stuff.. and i was winning but my sis wanted to play some fish game on my laptop so i paused my game.. but..

i accidentally tripped over the wire and my game was lost cuz i din put the batt into my laptop!! argh. so i started another game after dinner.

and i won!! this proves derrick wrong cuz he said with the character i was using (the one that says "oh my homies"..), i cant win against the computer. heeee!! and I WON!! i'm super duber happy. weeee.... :)

Saturday, February 25, 2006

thankew Julian!!

thanx to u i have links on my blog now! how coooooool is that. thanx thanx. :)

end of term break. BOOO!

like always, break is never enough. but oh well. school can be fun too. at least i have lionel with me! yipeeee...

anyway, second training with the odac pple. was tough as usual. (at least i think so.) i'm sure it's ok for ze bin.. he like how zai. he can run up the 40 storeys to take his timing on our 5th set... that's like after 4x40 storeys!! he's damn good la.. and he has skinnier legs than most of us.....

yupz. training today = 2.4km timed run + 5x40 storeys + lots of sacrastic remarks from the guys + lots of sweat and pain.. how sian is that. although i'm happy that i have a reason to train, it's jus disappointing at the end of the day when i know i tried hard and it's still not good enough.

since last training, i've been to the gym 2-3 times and each time, i've tried to push myself that much more. but still, i'm not good enough. to the rest, it seems like a breeze and it seems like i'm not trying. but what do i do when i'm really in pain and i jus hafta stop? i know it's a team thing and they are nice to me. esp eleanor who will wait for me when i'm slow... but i feel so bad. i feel like i'm gonna let the team down... i dun want this anymore!!!!! and the guys are only good at making me feel worse... haiz. i'm making this sound kinda bad. it's not that bad actually. haha. i jus think i'm not there (at their level, at the "good stamina" level) and i'm a litttttttle bit better than the average. so it's hard la.

i'm just not good enough for competitions like this la. not at this time especially. when i haven beeeen training. and i take so much longer to get to the average odac level!!! helllp. what did i get myself into??

mood: depressed, disappointed, pessimistic, hopeless.

anyway, i'm trying to add links onto my blog but i dunno how to. thankew julian for trying to help me!!

Friday, February 24, 2006

What form of self-mutilation are you?


You are HITTING.
Synopsis: Hitting could pertain to hitting yourself or hitting other (hard) objects to cause bruises or cuts. This can lead to serious injury, including breaking bones. After being angered or mistreated, you probably sit and stew in it for a while before actually injuring yourself.
Positive trait: You accept others for who they are
Negative trait: Low self-esteem
Color: Green
Emotion: Tolerance
Animal: Fox
Quote: Dont try to fix me, Im not broken.



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Thursday, February 23, 2006

eh?

4 jobs you've had in your life

1. waitress at shinryoku yakitori restaurant at purvis street
2. cookie packer at home's favourite during chinese new year period before i went to uni
3. surveyor (like lionel and some of the other peanuts)
4. some part-time at my aunt's events company.

4 movies you could watch over and over

Mulan
Ever After
10 things I hate about you
Serendipity

4 TV shows you love(d) to watch

Sex and the city!!
Scrubs
Beautiful Life (jap serial)
F.R.I.E.N.D.S

4 places you've lived

Clementi with my cousin
Hillview Ave (x2)
Jurong West with my grandma
Choa Chu Kang with my other cousin

4 places you've been on vacation to

Hong Kong
Australia (x3)
Korea
China

4 places you would rather be

Thailand
Melbourne
Hillview Ave (my old home.. if only i could turn back time. hmmm.)
Lionel's place. (cuz there everything u need. tv, phone, comfy bed, the person himself, dvds, except junk food.)

4 of your favourite foods

Starburst Babies
Chocolate Eclairs
Seneca Apple Chips
Tiong Bahru Yu Sheng!!

4 websites you visit daily

http://trent.blogspot.com/
http://gaothebao.blogspot.com/
http://www.hollywoodrag.com/
and some other blog that has to remain a secret

4 tagged

My sister
Chalene
Charmaine
Jorraine

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

the source of my pain, my misery.

if my odac friends see this. i'm pretty much dead. HA!

anyway. i'm training up for the national vertical marathon which is organized by NTU annually. it's like some 43 storeys climb up one of suntec's tower. think it's either tower 4 or 5. yupz. sounds WOW huh.. or sounds easy huh.. oh well.. i dunno la. took part once in JC but that was when i was in ODAC and training twice a week and i'm lousy enough. and now i haven even been training much and i'm taking part!! i think i'm going mad. i jus hope my team wunt kill me.

anway. last saturday was the first training. ran one round round toa payoh and nearly died. i had to stop to breathe. then went to do 3 x 40 storeys at toa payoh. and the view up there is kinda nice. but the climb up... man it sucks! anyhoo, i could see my house from up there. heee.....

the view from the top. this view is not that great. there's others that are nicer. anyway, on the way up, we saw this couple carrying huge bagpacks and they were climbing the stairs too!!! WOW.....that's me back facing the camera! i look like i'm enjoying the view but actually i'm puking after the first 40 storeys cuz i din have breakfast and was feeling damn dizzy. haha!!finally! this is after 3 x 40 storeys = 120 storeys!! :)

haiz. training this saturday again. for now. i'll hit the gym as often as i can!!

lost and found

when i got home yesterday, it was already 7.30pm and it was dark outside.
i realized pheebe (my rabbit) was not in the cage so i went to look in the garden.
i saw it sitting at its usual spot outside my garden. it's hard to imagine what i'm saying if u haven been to my place. but let's jus say i saw it but cant get to it cuz there's a little metal fence that blocks me from pheebe. ok.

its usual spot. this is outside my garden. it's like a jungle out there. and pheebe likes to lie on the soil like that!

so. by the time we were done with dinner. it was almost 9pm and pheebe was nowhere to be found. i got a little worried but was told not to worry cuz usually it will come back after awhile..

at 10pm, i checked. and it was still not home.
at 11pm, i checked. still not home.
at 12am, i checked. still not home.

we searched everywhere. i climbed out of the garden, into the bushes. was so afraid it drowned so i checked the little "pond/stream/river" thingy surrounding the garden.. it's not there or anywhere!

at nearly 1am, i was sitting in the garden jus waiting for it. it was too dark to look for it. i cant see anything. and the only torchlight i had was a pathetic one battery thing.

after that, i couldn't wait up any longer. so i slept. and i dreamt 2 dreams.

1. i found it dead. attacked by cats that i saw earlier that night who were chasing each other.
2. i found it floating on the surface of the water.

this morning. i woke up as soon as the sun was up and went round looking for it. i was so depressed that i imgained seeing pheebe twice. once, i tot it was at the bushes. but when i climbed out of the garden. there was nothing. the other time, i tot this brown pot was pheebe's back so i brushed the bushes aside to get to it. but it turned out to be a brown pot.

so i got myself some coffee and stationed myself at the garden. and as i was waiting. i saw it running towards me!! i was so so HAPPY when it jumped back into my garden. i ran to it and caught it and hugged it...

i think it's gonna take some time before i let it out again. i cant imagine seeing his dead body or losing it. i was almost gonna print out posters to reward anyone who finds it.

most recent picture of pheebe. i will be doing up an entry on pheebe soon.. i have so many photos of him!!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

recent happenings.

omg! i realised i haven been blogging for almost 2 weeks!! or has it been 2 weeks? hmm.. time flies.

had been having crazy workload, tests, presentation and what-not... that's why i haven been blogging. and of cuz also 'cause i'm a little lazy too, and 'cause i dun have the camera with me. (i like to put lots of pictures.. cuz pictures are mose interesting than what i have to say.. ).

anyway, i cant really rem what happened last week except...

1. v-day. (13/ 14 feb)
din celebrate this year. haven been celebrating most of the years. anyway, on monday 13 feb, which was patron's day (SMU's 'birthday'), lionel got the car and brought me to eat yu sheng at tiong bahru. that's his way of showing he loves me. and cuz i ABSOLUTELY LUUURRRRVEE yu sheng. ya so we went tiong bahru and after that, he sent me home cuz he had to return the car. so he went to SMU to mingle and i think it was from there that he got me something. heh.
when he came over on monday night, he gave me a calendar full of our pictures. it's so sweet cuz i haven had that from anyone. and looking thru all the photos, it made me realize how far we came to get to where we are now. it's AMAZING!!

and, that was not even the highlight! even later at night, when my dad was sleeping already, i heard someone call thru the intercom at my place so i answered and asked who it was cuz it's this lady..

me: hello. who are you looking for? i think you got the wrong unit.

her: i'm looking for a miss reina cai.

me: er, what?

her: i'm looking for a miss reina cai?

at this time, lionel was already opening the door. i was damn confused.. i totally din know what was happening. and my blur sister.. lionel told her his plan and she was still so blur. din know who was at the door too.. was kinda funny. anyway, it was this huge bouquet of RED ROSES!! woooooohhhooo.. it was super super sweet.. i was feeling all warm and fuzzy and loved.. i had roses before.. had them on v-day before. but never had i receive red roses. and i love red roses.. in my life, i only need that once. and i got it!! he must be THE ONE. haha.. (oops. am i jinx-ing it? heh.. ) yup.. i was so happy. i took pictures but i dun have them now.. anyway, believe me. it's super huge and ultra red roses. damn damn nice. heee...

and to think i got him a damn last min present. i was on my way home from my driving lesson on monday morning and hopped off my bus 2 stops early to get him 2 fishes, some fish food, some oxygen balls for the fish and put them in a tiny glass coke bottle. and one fish died after i gave him lor.. sianz. heh..

2. fun-o-rama. (18 feb)
was my first time ever stepping into ACJC.. honestly, i din like AC very much. i'm generalising. but since sec school, all the girls were crazy over AC boys and all wanted to go ACJC. so i tot to myself: "what's so great about a bunch of spoilt, egoistic and stinky boys?" so from then on, i din like them very much.. till now, alot of ACJC pple are spoilt and have attitude problems.. but they can also be very nice and very smart. and i actually admire their confidence.

anyhoo, fun-o-rama was ok i guess. was damn weird cuz i dunno anyone.. and the teachers and the place and everything. so i was pigging out alot of the time. but it was really ok. paul, junior and lionel caught fishes.. and gave them to lionel but lionel left them at lam's place and the next day, we brought them to sentosa and in the end, most of them died. heh.

3. treasure hunt.
was a great day. me, lionel, lam and cheryl joined this island hunt at sentosa. it was some SMU event - waikiki. was kinda fun and we led most of the way.. the first prize was 4 nanos. one each for each team member. but we got second. we were all so bummmmmmed.... cuz we were so close yet so far. haiz.. but we all din expect to get second at all. anyway, we lost to paul's team. good for them. i guess i'm happy at least it's them. *wink*.

ps: watch pink panter!! it's out and it's super funny! WATCH ITTTT!!!!! :)

Thursday, February 09, 2006

as close to shopping as i can get now.

So, I was bored after my meeting two days back and was browsing through the net looking for watches.. i realized that i should have a watch.. been relying on my hp.. haha.. anyway.. this pretty watch is from fossil. kinda nice huh..

other colours that they have.. though i think the white / cream one is the nicest! but but but... is it too dressy? hmmm.....

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

carribean - been there, done that.

So, over the weekend, i went to see my aunt's new place - The Carribean.

the carpet that was in the living room. looks like a floor full of fat maggots but it's so nice to step on.. haha..
ao this is one of the channels. think there are 2-3 channels. it's a channel cuz it's REAL sea water.. and i think it used to be a dock for ships or something. and so the two opposite blocks are connected by a bridge. it's damn romantic at night.
if u look carefully, u will see a little boat. according to my dad, it's for maintenance work. average units here cost a million and the ones facing the sea...........*drum rolls* 4 freaking million dollars!! damn damn expensive.. haiz... and it's mostly taken up by ang mohs..
according to my dad again, this place has the best fengshui, cuz of the water and mount faber at the back or something la. something like water = wealth will be collected here. (??) but ya.. haha. and the units on the first floor have their own jacuzzi!!!!!! how cool is that? with the fountains in front of ur house and sea view!!! heee.. so cool huh. and did i mention u can see sentosa and the cables cars from the carribean.. haha.. unbelieveable. and at night, we had wine by the sea.. it was so so romantic.. heh

other WOW factors include:
1. 13 swimming pools
2. 3 playgrounds
3. sunset view in the evening
it's about time i mention abt the youngest cousin i have. he's 15 months and still no hair. haha. but he's so cute! his name is jet. (and yes, the jeep thing moves. there's an accelerator pedal and tail lights and horn and what not. haha. tried to sit on it but heh.. too fat.)
that's jet and my dad..that's jet and my dad. and jet is trying to "sayang" the plant. haha.
that's jet staring at my cousin. look at his astro hairdo. that's the best his hair can do. he hardly has hair.. hehheeee... elmo is the dog. i used to have a dog - chilli. and this is chilli's brother. but chilli died. hmmm.. anyway, elmo is so so cute. and i think it's kinda a horny dog. haha.

hmm.. so anyway, midterms is coming and work is piling. i hardly have time to do anything else besides feeding pheebe (my rabbit which i will find time to do an entry on soooooon) and watching a 20-mins episode of scrubs here n there. haizzz.... cant wait for midterms to be ooooooooooverrrr...... yup.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

personality tests.

did a little personality test to see if i am a nerd, geek or dork.. (THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST)

and.. i'm

Joe Normal
8 % Nerd, 8% Geek, 26% Dork For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored less than half in all three, earning you the title of: Joe Normal.

This is not to say that you don't have some Nerd, Geek or Dork inside of you--we all do, and you can see the percentages you have right above. This is just to say that none of those qualities stand out so much as to define you. Sure, you enjoy an episode of Star Trek now and again, and yeah, you kinda enjoyed a few classes back in the day. And, once in a while, you stumble while walking down the street even though there was nothing there to cause you to trip. But, for the most part, you look and act fairly typically, and aren't much of an outcast.

How you compared to other people your age and gender:


You scored higher than 1% on nerdiness


You scored higher than 4% on geekosity


You scored higher than 34% on dork points


anyway, did another test on lover style. haha. (THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST)

and i'm..

The Exotic Lover
31% partner focus, 19% aggressiveness, 55% adventurousness Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to be wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, you concentrate more on enjoying the experience rather than worrying about your performance.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Exotic Lover.

The Exotic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and conjures images of the exotic, romantic hero out of a romance novel, or perhaps a slightly dangerous and deadly sexy femme fatale from a noir mystery. The Exotic Lover loves pleasure and is a treasure to date, though it can be difficult to do so because they sometimes tend to be mysterious and reluctant to commit.

In terms of physical love, the Exotic Lover can be quite surprising, as they are often more exciting and adventurous than predicted. Given a little freedom, and the right lover, the Exotic Lover can be a delight in bed. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!)

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Liberated Lover (most of all) or the Devoted Lover, or the Romantic Lover.

How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 3% on partner focus

You scored higher than 3% on aggressiveness

You scored higher than 47% on adventurousness

haha!!



Wednesday, February 01, 2006

HE.


although i said i will not msg lionel to spoil is night yest, i did. i felt so bad i msged him.. and it's so great to know that i'm still high on his priority list.

yesterday he ended his game earlier, brought me to supper (with liyan n lam) near my place then we sat by the pool and jus laid and talked. it was kinda chilly cuz i was wearing shorts but it's such a nice night. and i told him what was bothering me and all and he said some crap. haha. sometimes or rather, most of the time, i jus really want him to listen to me complain and whine and not preach. haha. i know he's jus telling me what he feels and what he thinks abt my problems but i dun really wanna know at that time. heee.. it's MY sad moment!

but anyhoo, i'm glad he came for me. it's so nice to know that sometimes, when u need someone to fall back on when u are feeling weak and life is meaningless (i'm over-acting..haha!). and i'm glad it's him i can count on. it is the best one hour i had in a long time. (i mean the talk at the pool)

for now, it's time to start doing my work again. have got finance work due tmr and apparently, it's a bit*h. woohoo.. i cant wait. bleargh.

PS: the photo was taken a some months back... i feel i look much older now.. haha...