like always, break is never enough. but oh well. school can be fun too. at least i have lionel with me! yipeeee...
anyway, second training with the odac pple. was tough as usual. (at least i think so.) i'm sure it's ok for ze bin.. he like how zai. he can run up the 40 storeys to take his timing on our 5th set... that's like after 4x40 storeys!! he's damn good la.. and he has skinnier legs than most of us.....
yupz. training today = 2.4km timed run + 5x40 storeys + lots of sacrastic remarks from the guys + lots of sweat and pain.. how sian is that. although i'm happy that i have a reason to train, it's jus disappointing at the end of the day when i know i tried hard and it's still not good enough.
since last training, i've been to the gym 2-3 times and each time, i've tried to push myself that much more. but still, i'm not good enough. to the rest, it seems like a breeze and it seems like i'm not trying. but what do i do when i'm really in pain and i jus hafta stop? i know it's a team thing and they are nice to me. esp eleanor who will wait for me when i'm slow... but i feel so bad. i feel like i'm gonna let the team down... i dun want this anymore!!!!! and the guys are only good at making me feel worse... haiz. i'm making this sound kinda bad. it's not that bad actually. haha. i jus think i'm not there (at their level, at the "good stamina" level) and i'm a litttttttle bit better than the average. so it's hard la.
i'm just not good enough for competitions like this la. not at this time especially. when i haven beeeen training. and i take so much longer to get to the average odac level!!! helllp. what did i get myself into??
mood: depressed, disappointed, pessimistic, hopeless.
anyway, i'm trying to add links onto my blog but i dunno how to. thankew julian for trying to help me!!
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wei...dun stress lahz!oki oki...next time dun suan u liaoz!hahaha,we're not there to win remember!we're a team,dun worry!can see u're doing ur best liaoz!rest well and dun overexert ohhhHHH!!!
Don't give up dear...I'm here to support you..i'll go to the gym as often as you'll like..i may not be running with you..but at least i'll be accompanying you=)
haha. i know u will support me. but ultimately, i will have to be the one who competes. and i'm the only person that can help myself with this. i jus wish it was easier!
omg meng heng! i din know u read this. hmm.. i know all the teasing is for fun.. but i dunno.. jus feeling a little sad la. that i cant do as well as i hope to. yupz. :)
hahaha...dun think too much!we're joining it for fun!no pressure...u've done well!!!dun worry!and as for reading ur blog,i so happened to passby onli!ahahah...now u noe...!!!
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