day 3 (los angeles)

so today, we woke up and had to rush to get out of the house so that we can catch kamil's class. it was quite cool cuz we sat in for his class and he acted a short scene. cooool. then after that they had like people go up to do their monologues and stuff.. damn interesting. and the prof will point out stuff and give them ideas on how to do it then they'll do it again. damn cool la.

anyway, after touring the lee stransberg institute (which is kamil's school), we went for lunch at the grove. and it's a nice sunny day!
had burgers again. i had mushroom burger with onions and cheese.. damn nice. and hot chocolate! yum.
took this open-roof tram/bus thing. nice. it was sunnny!
still at the grove. at the fountain place. look at how huge kamil is. he has his arm ard me n lionel! and u know what? the people are all this tall here! and girls tooo! it's freaking scary. i feel so small... seee. i bought 4 tops, 2 were from forever 21!! and i bought 2 necklaces and 2 pairs of shades. heee. i shouldn't be spending too much man. this is crap. argh.
these are kamil's friends. they're from america, london, and turkey. the turkey dude is damn damn funny! haha. it was nice hanging out with them!.

ok. i guess that's it for today. we pretty much shopped and ate. that's all. haha. i'm so sleepy every night i settle down to blog.. i'm so sleepy n lazy. so pls be contended with the photos. haha.

day 1 & day 2 (LA)

so here are some pictures as promised. heee. this is the first time me n lionel took a flight tog. was not exactly perfect.. and it's only cuz i was having a super bad headache, puked n all. and it doesn't help because i am a little scared of flying. hmm.. okay. so the picture above is taken on the plane of cuz. hee. i got the window seat! weee.. 4 hrs later, we arrived at taiwan.. in transit. bleargh.
at taiwan, we were hungry. and we actually wanted to eat the famous chicken cutlet thing but it will be expensive considering we would have to take a cab there n back.. and it's not cheap. and we really have to rush.. so in the end, we end at the airport. ate the taiwan noodle set. it's ok only la.

this is me eating my apple chips that we brought from singapore. man.. less than one day and i'm already eating junk from singapore. how will i last for 4 mths? argh. anyway, this picture is taken outside where i am staying now. at lionel's friend, kamil's, place. it's a decent place with internet n a pretty safe neighbour! yep. and according to kamil, marilyn monroe stayed here before!! how cool is that?!?!?!
this is taken at mel's burger place. it's a good place to pple watch but damn were we unlucky. din see anyone famous so far. argh. and the olsen twins are at new york! i hope i bump into them when i get there! for now, i hope to see paris hilton n lindsay lohan n jennifer aniston n all the pretty n hot celebrities! haha.. i'm going mad. anyway, mel's really great. the interior is damn retro. hee. nice. i like!


day 2: hollywood boulevard. this was taken at the hollywood subway station. it's so cute. and there are more than one design. hmm.. damn cute la.the famous hollywood sign!! it's things like that that make it unbelieveable that i'm actully at HOLLYWOOD!!! OMG... haha.. the first star that i took with today. it's elizabeth taylor's star. took with winnie the pooh, disneyland, bruce lee and michael jackson today! hee.. of cuz lionel took with some too! we're so touristcy.. heee then we went to the ripley's.. how nice. these are some things that we saw la. the things were really interesting but u would really have to be there to read it n experience it la. this lady freaked me out. i mean the statue of queen elizabeth. i have no idea why they would have to make it so scary man.. eeks. this is a real life baby skeleton.. two-headed man!! freaky!!. and some other pictures hollywood... it was cold man.. was drizzling.
and us taking with the hollywood sign. it's right at the back if u look carefully. it's the white thin line on the hills. haha. that's me n spiderman! haha. he's balancing on the dustbin. cool huh. after that, we met kamil and his switzerland friend and we went for dinner. had nice fried chicken with waffles. was goooooood.. followed by scary movie 4 at the cinemas. they wanted to watch "hard candy" which is an interesting show but it was rated "R" so i cant watch. haha. ok.. that's all of us having supper. from left to right, that's lionel, me, switzerland guy, natalia (kamil's friend), and kamil. the 3 are like actors.. so it's cooool. we had like milkshakes n mushroom omelette n rosti-like thing n bagel. heee. was goooood tooo..

now it's like 4.30 am.. argh. i'm so so tired. will be heading out again tmr.. i had better sleep sooooon..

unbelieveable.

OMG OMG!! i cant believe that i'm actually in US, in LA!! i mean i always see US on tv, and now, i'm actually here. i get to see what i've seen on tv all these years. i get to see the hollywood sign n all. it's so amazing. obviously, this is my first time here. so wooohoooo!! heee :) but i'm really tired so i wunt be typing much or posting photos yet..

yup. this post is jus to let my friends know that i've reached here in one piece. a few more days to go then off to work i go. eeeeks.

my last sunday.

there's so much i wanna say but i dunno where to start. although i think i've said this alot, i'm gonna say it again; i'm really gonna miss this place. miss the familiarity, the people, the food, my family, my pheebe, my sweets...

i've been feeling more excited than anything until yest. yest while showering, i suddenly realize that i'm going for 4 MONTHS!! that means i'll be GONE FOR 4 FREAKING LONG MONTHS!! that's a really scary tot. i mean i know i was going away.. but hey!! not that long.. damn... i'm really relieved that at least i have lionel though. hmmm...

and it's also a little sad cuz i haven met all the people that i wanna meet. i mean i wanna meet them but it's also not like a huge thing that i'm leaving so i kinda dun wanna disturb those that are studying. hmm.. but i guess i should have. damn. now i dun have anymore time.. :(

it's really damn scary la!!

private emtions

i wanted to post an entry on some feelings i had over these past few days. and then i think again. and it doesn't matter.

no matter how i feel, what i do, who i meet or not meet up with, i'm leaving soon.

this is: extremely taxing on my little brain.

1. My ex is: in melbourne. (i think...)

2. Maybe I should: start stuffing myself with all the yummy food (esp yu sheng n tea eggs) here before i leave for US!!

3. I love: to cook n not have to wash. and of cuz i love pheebe, my family, my friends, lionel, sweets. i also love to talk rubbish (at times).

4. I don't understand: how the 4D works.

5. I lose: hair easily but it's all good cuz i have so much hair.

6. People say I'm: shy? (heh)

7. Love is: a strong feeling that i cant justify with words.

8. Somewhere, someone is: dying

9. I will always: try to collect all the one dollar coins so i can put them in my piggy bank.

10. Forever is: something that exists in la la land.

11. I never want to: see pheebe die.

12. I think the current US President: looks like a chimp.

13. When I wake up in the morning: i check my sms-es n grab a cuppa coffee as i feed pheebe.

14. My past was: wonderfulous!!

15. I get annoyed when: i'm feeling hot or having to study with a bad headache.

16. Parties are for: everyone.

17. My dog is: hopefully coming soon!!

18. My cat is: the fat cat that i sometimes feed at lionel's place.

19. Kisses are the best when: both parties are not sweaty?

20. Tomorrow: i'm gonna cut my hair.

21. I really want: to eat yu sheng and zuuchini now.

22. I have low tolerance for people who: shout at me.

23. I am tagging: the odac pple!!

B.I.N.K.Y

btw, for those who dunno what the heck a "binky" is..

i read this in a little pets magazine i got when i went to the vet the other day.. it reads:

"some rabbits will do something called a "binky" when it is extremely happy. it jumps into the air and twists its head and body in different directions. it can be done while running or while standing in one place. a variation of this is a ear flick or a head flick. this is like a fast version of an indiand dance head tilt movement."

HAHAHAHAHAHA.. i tot that was extremely funny. haha..

who's stressed?

heee.. my exams are over!! cooooooooooooooooool... :):)

met up with the girls after exams today.. went to purvis street to eat western food.. the lamb chop i ate was yummy! hee. kinda sad that i wunt be seeing the girls anymore.. at least till i come back again i think. celine took time out from studying (she has a paper on monday).. and layshan & winnie too... they're all gonna have exams or are having exams.. and joanne n shufen took their rest time from work to come out so i can see them... thankew thankew so so so so much. i will miss u all when i'm there. :(

anyway.. something funny happened after that..we wanted to take a grp picture beside this poster before me, joanne and shuff went bugis and layshan, winnie n celine went towards smu.. hee. so layshan was desperately looking for pple to help us take photo.. there's like no one ard at that time man.. anyway, we saw this bunch of japanese so we were gonna ask them to help. but they approached ur and asked us for directions.. and they cant really speak english.. haha. so we said we were going where they're going and we'll show them the way but they must help us take photo first. haha..

ok. so it was weird. we got a bunch of tourists to help us take the photo.. heh. and then layshan's camera had no batt. haha! so had to use joanne's hp. damn lame. and the jap guy used his camera and said he will post to us and asked for our address. haha.. damn funny. ok it was funnier when it happened.

anyway, i headed to bugis intending to buy a pair of slippers. my straw slippers are wearing out. haha. i din manage to get any slippers... :( what happened to all the slipper shops?? damnit!

BUT!!! i did get 2 new denim skirts which i lurve and one top which i couldn't try and now that i did, it's too short.. and i think i wunt ever wear it.. and i bought a necklace.. heee.. i wanted to buy earrings and a belt but i din ok.. bleah.. anyway i din spend alot cuz stuff at bugis is cheeeeeeeaaaapppp.. hee.. i'm happppyyy.. haha. okok.. i always write so much rubbish. hee.

now to watch scrubs with my bro.... my life is how happening. haha. right.

my little way of saying thanx.

i really appreciate all my friends who msged me n all. thankew so so much. it's nice to know that i'm not alone.. maybe this is not a big deal to some of u.. it's only a rabbit some might say... but it's that and so much more.

anyway, the previous post was a little tribute or remembrance entry.. jus for pherbe mainly. becuz he was such a wonderful little bunny.

and to the pple who msged me. i know that u all said u will buy me a bunny for my bday. thanx. but i cant afford a bunny farm yet. :)

yest night, my dad asked: "so i heard ur little bunny died.." and i said ya, and told him the whole story. i think he knew i was sad.. and he said i must be prepared. becuz bunnies dun live very long and once they get sick, they will die very fast.. and ya. he said i shld be prepared that pheebe might die soon too. i felt a little sadder. i kinda hoped pheebe will live on forever.. although i know that it wouldn't. i jus din need him to remind me of that yest..

but then he also asked if i were gonna get another one. and i said i prob will but not now. i'm jus not really for one more now. besides i have to leave for US soon... and he was saying that he might prefer me having a dog.. cuz they will live longer and they dun die so easily. that made me happy cuz i always wanted another dog.. jus that he din allow.

i'm really glad that he's ok with me having a dog now.. and i might jus consider getting myself one after i get back from the US. i cant wait!! i jus hope pheebe wunt get jealous. i feel a little guilty for being happy. but i'm happy!! :):)i named this little doggy "bunny".. haha.. it's my friend's dog.. but i had it for a week and i loved him.. heee.. isn't he cute? but i'm thinking of getting a king charles if i were to get. sam thinks king charles looks like aliens.. hahaha!! the one in the photo is a cairn terrier. hee..

and there it went.

it's been awhile. i've been busy studying for my exams.

and then pherbe had a cold on tuesday. i noticed something was wrong with him cuz he din eat his food when i put it in the cage. usually, he would be the first to eat all the food up. but instead, he sat there looking upwards. i had to rush. rushed to my exam in the morning. the first thing i did when i got home was to check on him. he was still sitting at one corner n looking up. i tot maybe it was a little bored so i let the rabbits out in the garden. and i sat outside watching them. pherbe would usually run all around n start eating the plants. but instead, it sat behind me and looked upwards. my bro n i joked. maybe his cage is a little smelly so he looked upwards. so i decided fine, i'll change the bedding, wash the cage and bathe him. and so i did. but while i was bathing him, he was struggling to climb to my shoulder.. and looked upwards. he was struggling to breathe. i was freaked out and rushed him to the vet. the vet scolded me for bathing for him cuz he had a cold. she said "rabbits can die of respiratory problems..." and how was i to know? i wouldn't be there if i knew he had a cold. i would jus buy the medicine. hearing her say that cost me 35 bucks.

so that night, i kept it in my room and placed a towel over the cage so it wouldn't be so cold. and since it wasn't eating, i had to force feed it or it will really die. i had to do it every hour.. but it looked a little stressed so i fed it less frequent. that's what they ask me to do. and on the third time, it was 1am. and i was about to sleep cuz i had a paper at9 which meant i had to wake up at 7.. and i promised to be in sch at 815. which meant i had to wake up at 615. and so i tot, i better feed it before i sleep otherwise it wunt have food the whole night. so i fed like one quarter of what i'm supposed to.. and it was not breathing very well. i tot maybe i'll try what the vet suggested n put a little bit of vicks to help the congestion. so i sat at my table. placed pherbe on the table so i can get the vicks. but as soon as i did that, it flopped on my table. it scrambled on the table, flopped to the side and was twitching. i helped it on its paws but it jus flopped. after 3 secs, it stopped breathing.

i called the emergency line. (thinking they can help) i was seriously lost. i din expect it at all. and it happened all too quickly. and so i said "help! my rabbit is gonna stop breathing. what do i do now?" and the guy said "may i know what's ur name, what's ur contact number, which clinic do u go to? what's the name of the vet u saw? i'll get a doctor to call u back?" GREAT. trust him to do that.

and then he got an overseas doctor to call me back. like what can he do. and this doc asked me "so which vet did u see? dun cry. call the emergency line back n tell them u're looking for dr nathan." fine.

i did that and the same guy picked up. and he asked "what's ur name, who are u looking for? what happened? which clinic did u go to?" and i said get me dr nathan now. and he "ok.. what's ur contact number, i'll msg her and get her to call u back asap?" bloody asshole!

and then after a million years, dr nathan called back. but it din matter anymore.

Pherbe died.

there it laid.. still on my table. its eyes were wide open. its mouth was sligthly open. and it was looking upwards. its paws were all soft. and then its head became cold.

i refuse to admit it. but i guess i have to. thanx to lionel n sam who helped my bury it. and to my sis, thanx for being there for me at that time. even though u were so tired n all. and i wunt be seeing u for 4.5mths.. i'm sorry that the last time we see each other till aug will be on such a sad note.

and to pherbe. i hope u will be happy in rabbit heaven. i love u so much and i miss u dearly. i will never forget the happy times u spent doing "binky"s in the garden, trying to snuggle under pheebe. and sprinting ard the garden.





i only wish that while it was alive, it was a happy bunny. that's all i can hope for.

My study song..

i'm one of those who likes to listen to songs while studying. and i'm falling in love with this song all over again.. maybe it's the weather.. haha.. i love james blunt.. his voice.. husky and boyish and just kinda cute!! haha..

James Blunt - Tears and Rain
How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

Mt Panti and Pelepah Falls!! (long entry)

yest, on april fool's day, i went to malaysia with my odac pple. hee.. i finally got a chance too. although i have alot of studying to do since it is study break week and i have exams the week after... but i still decided to go la.. and i sure din regret! it was so much fun. yum! yup. so we met at 7am at kranji mrt before heading to johor together. took a bus from there to kota tinggi and then a cab to the start of the trail. and so we started our journey. heee.. there were damn alot of mozzies (according to tv, it's called mozzies.. not mosquitoes man.. yay.. i'm how cool. haha). anyway, there were seriously alot of them and i had the most following me la. even the mosquito patch din work!! i concluded that my brother is smelly cuz he was the one using the bag i carried yest. haha. according to the pple behind me, (think lek n meng heng.. and verified by eleanor) there were a few dozen? they guessed 40. haha cant u imagine that. gross!!! anyway after that, i got my first leech bite for the trip. i used to love leeches. i mean i dun mind them at all. cuz they're not painful. unless it's tiger leech or something. but anyway. yup. we mange to catch a few and i brought it home with me. (think there's abt 10 inside the bottle).. and they're still alive!! shall make lionel feed them later. heeee.... anyway, panti was fine.. everything was usual.. and the view was pretty good too!!

some photos taken on mount panti. this was taken before we started climbing. all look happy n relaxed. :)this funny toadstool thing was taken on the way up panti. damn cute la. they look like mini towers cuz the base is so fat!this was near the summit. we had to climb this cliff part. was fun. like rock climbing. i prefer climbing rocks then on jungle trails actually. but all's fun!this is at the summit. there's only 5 of us at this trip. lek (with his borrowed cam), placed the cam on a tripod and put it on some braches of a tree.. haha.. this is the first injury in all my years as a odac member. i mean of cuz i got scratched n blisters before. but i knew really bled. hmm.. it was quite interesting. and the thing is i got poked by this part sticking out from a fallen trunk (the one i'm stepping on). and it's not even sharp! but i got a hole in my knee now. eleanor helped me cover the wound. heee.. it's not painful at all.... weeee.... this is a red (heart-shaped) leaf i found while trekking.. heee.. i'm gonna give it to lionel. weee..we found this dead snake on the road. haha. so lek decided to pick it up to take a photo.. and look at him (he's in the yellow shirt).. he has his biscuits in the other hand. haha. gross!!

after that, we walked 3km down to pelepah falls. it is actually part of a plantation. can u believe it? someone owns the waterfall? damn cool la. anyway, we told the workers to let us in, promising them that we'll be out in 3 hrs' time. heee. so the next chapter of our journey started. weee... we got lost somewhere and climbed this damn damn damn damn damn damn damn steep slope.. it's unbelieveable.. and jus when u think it's ending, u turn to ur right and it's another steep slope. haha. after climbing it, we felt it was wrong so we turned back. and going down the steeep slope was damn challenging. hah. ya. after that was pretty smooth sailing. manage to see a few cascades.. and as we were descending, it started to drizzle, then rain. it's nice walking in e rain, cuz i dun feel as smelly, and the rain water is refreshing! yup.
the scary part is that it's pretty dangerous to trek a waterfall when it rains cuz the rocks that we walk on will be super slippery n at some parts, if u slip n fall, u're more or less dead. and there were parts that we fell. but luckily, no one fell all the way.. phew. and the worst part was meng heng was at the same place 5 years ago, trekking with the AJ odac pple and some others. and the AJ vice-president died. apparently, she slipped and fell. most likely knock her head a few times, get tossed in the river as the water gushed. cuz it was drizzling and the water level was high. and it was late so they din manage to find her. till the next morning, the police/ rangers found her body. it was all stiff and her fingers were clenched up. she probably died from hypothermia even if she survived the fall. it was super scary. i mean there's surely someone who died at every mountain. even ophir. but it's scarier this time cuz meng knew her. and it makes us feel closer to her. hmmm... scary..

some photos at pelepah falls (lombong waterfalls)at the first resting point at pelepah. before crossing any rivers. hee. (me n eleanor acting cute.) at the first 'waterfall'.. haha.. notice there's a guy at the back.we dunno where he came from la. but he's quite skillful in climbing. haha. look at the mossy rocks!! that's what we hafta climb!! (that's me at the bottm right desperately trying to shorten my bag straps so it wunt get wet so soon. haha meng heng was trying to splash some water to get the water effect in the photo.. but that's us trying to slowly inch our way to the center. the log is damn damn slippery!! we could have fallen and seriously injure ourselves. but for the sake of the photo. haha! (lek's bright idea) hee.. the end product.. quite nice huh.. after that everything was a little blurry cuz it is taken from a ziplock bag.. (that's me!) anyway, after that, we all had some fun at the last river crossing. thanx to meng heng who filled his shoe with river water n splash at me. of cuz i splashed them back. haha. gross but so so fun!that's us posing iwth our weapons. i'm holding my shoe and my dirty sock! haha..i think this was the third or fourth cascade. it looks good. but like what lek said, the camera cant entirely capture what we saw there. it's so much better when u are there la. that's us at marrybrown. the chicken there is actually quite nice!! we felt so happy cuz we were dry n there was food. (we din had lunch :(.. haha) both eleanor n i had food in our foods.. haha. i look constipated. on the bus to larkin... (on the way home).. heee.

i'm thankful for this trip becaus i know the next time they trek, i will be in US. and the next time i trek with them would prob be at least 6 mths later.